[ Thereās a few moments where Alec doesnāt trust himself to say anything. He lets Peter pace as he tries to sort out just whoās feeling what in his head. Peter is livid, that much is obvious, and he has every right to be. There wasnāt much trust between them to begin with, and Alec pretty much blew it all to smithereens in one fell swoop.
Alec isā¦ heās tired. Heās upset and angry, mostly at himself. Peterās got the truth of it- the Guardians are far from saints, far from team players or well-adjusted people, but they pull it together just fine. Alecās never had that, never stuck around long enough to get it, and weirdly that makes a little pang of loss ring in him. He only ever took family for granted, until it was gone. And then he spent the rest of his life avoiding getting close to anyone.
He tries to force himself to calm, he takes a deep breath, then another, until the storm inside him evens out. ]
You said you donāt care what I say. So what can I do?
[ Heās out of his depth, and heās drowning, but he knows that he needs to fix this. For both of their sakes. ]
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Alec isā¦ heās tired. Heās upset and angry, mostly at himself. Peterās got the truth of it- the Guardians are far from saints, far from team players or well-adjusted people, but they pull it together just fine. Alecās never had that, never stuck around long enough to get it, and weirdly that makes a little pang of loss ring in him. He only ever took family for granted, until it was gone. And then he spent the rest of his life avoiding getting close to anyone.
He tries to force himself to calm, he takes a deep breath, then another, until the storm inside him evens out. ]
You said you donāt care what I say. So what can I do?
[ Heās out of his depth, and heās drowning, but he knows that he needs to fix this. For both of their sakes. ]